6 weeks out from my accident and I barely recognize myself anymore
I don't really know how to start this so I'm just going to type and see what comes out.
About six weeks ago I was driving home from a work trip on the interstate — totally routine, route I've done probably a hundred times. A driver in the lane next to me drifted over without warning and clipped the back of my car. I spun, hit the guardrail, and that's basically where my memory goes blank. I woke up in a hospital room with my sister sitting next to me.
The doctors diagnosed me with a mild-to-moderate TBI on top of a bunch of physical stuff I'm still working through. And honestly? The physical injuries I can kind of deal with. It's everything else that's messing with me.
My personality feels different. My patience is basically zero. I used to love reading and now I can't focus long enough to get through two pages. I get overwhelmed in places that never bothered me before — grocery stores, crowded restaurants, anywhere loud. I had a full-on meltdown in a parking garage last week because I couldn't remember where I parked and everything just... crashed down on me at once.
I'm doing PT twice a week and I just started seeing a neuropsychologist, which helps a little I think. But some days it feels like the person I used to be is just gone and I'm walking around in their body pretending.
I haven't been able to get back behind the wheel. Even riding as a passenger makes my chest tight. I don't know if that ever goes away.
Has anyone else felt like this? Did it get better? I'm not looking for medical advice — I just want to know I'm not alone in this.