Anyone else losing their mind being stuck at home healing for months on end?
I don't even know where to start. It's been almost a year since my accident and I've had two procedures already with what looks like a third one coming. Before this happened I was running around constantly — managing a small crew, staying active, barely sitting still. Now I'm on the couch watching the same streaming shows on repeat and it's genuinely making me feel like I'm disappearing.
The hardest part isn't the physical pain anymore, honestly. It's the restlessness. I have this weird buzzing energy that just has nowhere to go. I'll feel okay for a few days, start thinking about getting back to some version of normal, and then something sets me back and I'm back to square one.
I've tried the whole "find a hobby" route. Bought supplies for like three different things. They're all sitting in a corner judging me. Every time I get a little momentum something changes — new diagnosis, new restriction, new wait. It starts to feel like my body is actively working against me.
I'm not trying to spiral here. I'm self-aware enough to know the depression warning signs and I'm keeping an eye on myself. Therapy helps some. But man, some days I just want to feel useful again. Like I matter in a practical, productive way, not just in a "rest and heal" way.
Does anyone else get this? The weird restless trapped energy when you literally cannot do the things that made you you? How are you handling the long haul of this?