Crying every day since my accident and feel stupid about it — is this normal?
I keep telling myself to get it together but I genuinely cannot stop breaking down and I don't know what's wrong with me.
About ten days ago someone blew through a stop sign and hit me on the driver's side. The other car wasn't going that fast — maybe 25mph tops — so I keep telling myself it "wasn't even that bad." No broken bones, nothing obviously catastrophic. But I have a pretty serious concussion, some deep bruising along my ribs and shoulder, and two lacerations that needed stitches.
The physical stuff I can kind of deal with. What I wasn't prepared for is how wrecked I feel mentally. I've been having intrusive thoughts about the crash replaying over and over. Loud sounds make me flinch. I've barely left my apartment. I had to sleep with every light on for three days because the dark was freaking me out.
I also have a history of anxiety and depression, and this has sent both of them into overdrive. I'm scared to take some of my usual meds because of the concussion and I haven't been able to get clear guidance from anyone yet — my follow-up appointment isn't for another week.
I'm barely eating. I'm exhausted but can't sleep more than two hours at a time. I've cried more this week than I have in probably two years.
My friends keep saying "at least you're okay!" and I know they mean well but it makes me feel like I'm being dramatic. I don't feel okay at all. Is anyone else going through this or been through it? How long does this part last?