Walked away from my wreck physically fine but my brain won't let me move on — anyone else?
I don't really know how to start this so I'll just say it: I was in a pretty serious accident about three weeks ago and by every measure I was "lucky." A pickup blew a red light and clipped the front of my car hard enough to send me spinning into a guardrail. Airbags went off, I had some bruising across my chest from the seatbelt, a mild concussion, and that was pretty much it.
The ER doc said I should feel grateful. My coworkers said the same. Even my mom keeps saying "God was watching out for you." And I know they're right. But nobody seems to get that I can't stop thinking about the two or three inches that separated what actually happened from something much, much worse. There was a concrete pillar right there. There were people walking on the sidewalk nearby.
Every time I try to sit down and focus — work, anything — my mind just rewinds and plays it back. The sound of the impact. The spinning. The weird silence after.
I have an appointment with a therapist coming up and I'm genuinely hoping it helps. But in the meantime I feel like I'm underwater. Has anyone else come out of an accident physically okay but felt completely wrecked mentally afterward? How long did it take before you stopped feeling like you were still in the crash? Did anything actually help in the short term while you were waiting to feel normal again?